I need answers

There is nothing wrong with you. It’s your choice. Your scared because there is a chance of rejection again. Your mom probley is worried about the outcome and affect it will have on you. Because she loves you. It’s about you. Your mom will always be there. Your human. It’s driving you crazy not knowing the answers. This may be hard to take in but you may never know the answers. You may be rejected. Or maybe in time you will know. Your biological parents may feel a lot of emotions. They may not be able to face you. I’m adopted. I met my birthfather in my early 20s. I had to search I found him. My adopted mom was concerned but she loved me. My adopted parents went with me when I met my father. I felt like part of the hole inside my heart was filled. It was one of the best days of my life. I was blessed. I got my father’s side of the story. My adoption was closed but God left a window open. Still before I met my father I searched for my mother. I sent letters pictures my graduation stall announcement when I turned 18. She never wrote. I was rejected over and over it hurt. But after she passed I found answers from a sister. And it was hard not hearing it from my birthmother. I knew my birthparents loved me and that gave me peace. My birthfather has passed too. I have my adopted parents and I’m very lucky. I was adopted after I was born. I hope things go well for you. But sometimes doors are closed for a reason not that they didn’t care. Having to give someone up is a start of a new life. They had to give up their rights as parents. It breaks hearts. It’s hard to give those answers, Have courage try. But know there is nothing wrong with who you are you have a huge heart. I hope you find peace. Good luck.

Sincerely,

A former orphan (adopted) dramaqueen90