So I have been a person who thought about suicide, but I don’t really think about it anymore (although, I do think about dying).
Anyways, I wanted to discuss this with people, and I don’t feel like doing that with people I know.
- Apathy – The lack of feeling towards things
- Nihilism – The philosophy/choice that everything means nothing
- Depression – Apathy can be a symptom of depression
I think I feel mostly nihilistic, but the rest of it is apathy.
I do a lot of stuff, but it’s whatever…and I have given up a lot of things that are general topics for people.
Ex. Don’t watch TV (including news), not i na relationship, no kids, no house, no pets
(no reason not to include these things in my life)
I think I do love myself, but even though I am useful and do things, it’s just purposeless.
What is your experience of apathy and nihilism?
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Apathy for me is the result of being born as an extremely hypersensitive person, and finding no relief from the burden of feeling too deeply about things I can’t change, so ultimately, who gives a crap anymore. Life plays out the only way it knows how, and that’s that. (Shoulder shrug, both palms facing up.)
As for nihilism – Big picture: Life on earth is the result of acceptable biological conditions brought about by the planets positioning in space. A mile one way or the other, and conditions change which spell doom for life here. We’re here because, like a seed planted in dirt, a chain reaction began a few million years back and a cell became a thing that became a more improved thing that became us, and redwood trees, and grasshoppers, and pythons, sharks and kittens. It just happened.
“Meaning” is where I find it. It is subjective. Whatever is responsible for the universe could give a rats ass about whether I find love and happiness, or eat a bullet. The universe is huge – I am meaningless in the grand scheme, but when you are hurting and I come to your aid, I am the most important person in your world. My meaningfulness is situational and also subjective, as well as transient and irrelevant.
Depression: The result of denying myself that which I want and need due to hating myself. Noone disrespects and despises me more than myself, and it’s taking a significant toll, and unless I am killed in an accident or shot at the mall, depression will be the end of me, because in my depressed, apathetic state, this life is really not worth sticking around for once a few obligations have been satisfied. The insanity of humanity’s behavior and the resulting conditions are distressing and not worthy of further effort.
Sorry, this got more wordy than I thought it would, and I hope it makes sense. You really made me stop and think.
After reading a few times (my brain gets tired sometimes) it makes sense.
The reason for apathy makes sense.
The nihilismnof being important and unimportant makes sense.
And yes…depression…
I grew up in an abusive house, so I was thought that I can’t have anything to myself. because for each thing I had own, there was always a complain about it as a waste of money time and investment in a worthless creature (my parents told me that).
Apathy for me, is the feeling I’m not feeling anything. just don’t understand what feelings are. however I know how people act, and because I don’t see a problem with it, I use my knowledge to control them.
depress: When I remember the horrors, I feel sad. I guess that is what depression all about. Plus, when I’m locked.
sometimes I feel like a psychopath. 🙂
Sometimes I feel like a sociopath that manipulates people…