I like this place because only people i don’t know can judge me. And facebook is just a copy of a instagram. And nothing is worth looking at on there. Memes and news stories with the most f’d up titles.
To the point, might be moving here soon, the lease is up but were gonna renew it and break it when we can when find a cheaper place to live. Gonna lose the deposit regardless. Cops broke all the doors when a friend called 911 when i sent him a video of my wrist gashing blood. I regret it but honestly, i wish i finished the job and didn’t cry out for help. Doctors could’nt do anything. They’re paid to give a shit about people and still don’t. Honestly, only thing that can help me is painkillers. I have severe chronic pain and its the reason why i haven’t worked in 2 years since 2016. I worked 3 days out of 2017. I know im loser and sor forth, but my problems are the reason for that. Before all of this, i was a A and B student taking college prep classes. Lost interest in school and wanted to join the Marines. I got hurt during training, kid broke my finger throwing a bullet pass with a football which fucked up my whole life. Now i have severe arthritis in that hand. Anyways, ill be filing for veteran disability because i was sworn in when i got hurt. Kid robbed me from ever earning the eagle, globe and anchor. I have to get high or drunk to normally talk about this. I still went to boot after it happened and you have to have some balls going to bootcamp with medical problems that you lied about. I got out when i was 2 months in, said fuck this, i cant do it with medical problems. Got a uncharacterized discharge. The rich side of my family says ” you need to work through it, your the reason of your own suffering” yeah, i did that to myself huh? Never really hit me how fragile life is. you can live a perfect life and still get fucked over. Idk whats next, dont really care to find out. Im 20 years btw if you made it this far. Born in 97. So yeah, life decided to fuck me when i was 18, which is suppose to be the best year of your life. Thanks for reading if you made it this far, i hope ya’ll are doing better than me
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First of all,you’re not a loser.You were an A and B student,that shows that you have potentials,you have the ability to do something good for yourself.I think you just have to believe in yourself.
Secondly,serving in the army can be tough.I served for one year (we have mandatory military service in my country) in a tank division and,if I’m honest,it wasn’t the best time I ever had.The point I’m trying to make is that you can’t be living always in your past.Yes,what happened to you isn’t pleasant at all,but can you change the past?I think you should try for whatever you like.You’re so young,only 20 years old.Are you going to spend the rest of your life feeling bad?Many soldiers got hurt during their services or even severally wound and they still tried to live.Take for example the German soldiers after WW1:they lost the war and they got back to a hopeless society,many of them unemployed,and with no future at all.But they tried again and again to get their shit back together.Think of the US veterans after WW2,after the Iraqi war or even after Vietnam.They came up face to face with hard conditions,but still,many of them when they got back from the war tried to have a civilian life and rebuild their lives.
I think you have to believe in yourself.Have hope and try to overcome your problems.Even if you don’t overcome them,at least you would have tried.Yes,world is a shitty place,but there are also some good things to look forward to.