Darkness

There is darkness in all of us. I’m not talking about being evil or corrupt, I’m talking about the easiness in which we can all become susceptible to depression and thoughts of suicide. To me, darkness feels inevitable and inescapable, we have all faced her at least once in our lives, some more than others. She seduces us, tempts us, taunts us with the idea of ending our lives by making us believe that it is the only solution. Is death the only way to get away from her? Or will death only serve to place us in her grasp forever? I like overworking myself, I like to pile on my workload to keep myself busy and distracted, that way I can block her from my mind even if its just for a little while. But she’s never truly gone is she? She’s always there, whispering softly in the back of my mind with gentle lies and promises of false comforts. I am not naive, I know that it is not possible to be happy all the time and I don’t think l will ever get rid of darkness, because she is a part of me, a part of everyone. The best I can hope for is to be able to find that balance, learn to cope with darkness, and one day become strong enough to resist falling for her distorted promises. I hope you find that balance too. I hope you are able to resist her call and keep her at bay. One day at a time.