How can i distract myself?

I feel like the hardest thing for me is being alone, I had a best friend for months which was the main reason I felt happier, They are going through there own issues and  i’m pretty sure I’ve messed up our relationship and not sure when the day will come when we hang out again. I’m really struggling with this and it has been really hurting me emotionally. I could just be really upset from this cause there was a romantic connection

I’ve always been terrible at making friends, before her I basically had nobody for years and I was used to it… sad but used to it. After having such a connection with someone and suddenly losing it i’m struggling… alot.. I try get out but it’s not easy making friends from nothing. I used to game for hours to get rid of my free time but even that is so boring for me now.

I’m really self conscious cause im not very attractive because of my weight which i’m working on, I’ve tried to find clubs or something to join but there’s not much around, any advice?

I’m currently not working cause of multiple health issues but im hoping i can start doing something in the next few months which might at least keep me occupied.. not sure where im going here just ranting