I have borderline personality disorder, and I’m fighting a mood swing, I don’t want my new bf to witness me losing my shit. he knows about my BDP and weve been friends and housemates for over a year so he’s seen my mood swings before, but he dosent like them, he tolerates them. My Uni coursework is getting to me, and exams are 2 weeks away. I don’t know how to find an outlet for my anger and sadness. my Boxing club has been terminated and I cant run as typical British weather is being horrendous. I’m also changing hormone tablets so have to avoid drinking (which Is my normal stress relief) and new bf doesn’t like my self harm scars at all so no way can I resort to cutting like I have done for the last 6 years. just need some help.
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oh, so you did start dating him..
safe to say you don’t exactly enjoy the mood swings either.
I dunno. look at some type of exercise you could do indoors maybe?
where did your boxing club take place? maybe there’s an open gym somewhere or you can see if any other physical groups are around?
I relate. I have lost it and now I’m just trying to get through the days. Loud music can help, sometimes. I know how attractive physical pain is to get through it, seems a simpler quicker way through everything.
hopefully once you get past the exams though everything will ease up mood wise.
Yes I did, it happened really sweetly as well, and so far he has been very supportive and open with the rest of our flatmates and course mates, which has helped me to supress the thoughts that he will leave.
My uni holds free activities, so ill look at doing those again, but they don’t start again until term starts, gives me a week to hold on for.
At least, I think we both know, that the bad days don’t last forever, which does make holding on through the bad days a bit easier. yes, loud music always when I get lots of bad thoughts! surprising how much music helps.
both of those are good to hear.. and it is nice to have something to look forward to.
sometimes, yeah that thought can help. just can be a hard thing to hang onto..
I know, it’s been a lifeline more than once. I kinda want to get one of those hats that can play music so I can listen at work.