It’s been 3 months now that I’ve been away from home, living in a foreign country. But tomorrow is my flight back home. I really just cannot believe it I guess.
As much of an introvert as I am (or think of myself as), I’ve actually really enjoyed meeting so many people and talking with them about so many things. It’s been nice to be friendly with so many people all the time. I think that maybe it has really helped to improve my mood in a lot of ways. I think I am a much more social person than I actually give myself credit for.
And because of that, I’m really worried about how I will react to going home. I’m scared to fall back into the same routines and habits and accept the same things that I accepted of myself before.
And if I do that, then 100% things will go back to being the way that they used to be, and I’ll just constantly be wanting to kill myself again because I don’t matter to anyone.
I just don’t know what is going to happen, and that scares me.
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Good for you finding out that you’re not a stupid introvert d as you think you are. If you enjoy living a foreign country or another city, you should consider getting a job in a place and living there. Could that be an option?
I moved to a new country and I’m more depressed than I used to be.
OMG, iPhone sucks. It autocorrected “as” to “stupid” – so sorry pal. I did not mean to say “stupid” :/
I would need a college degree first, but I could eventually work here.