I’m scared to live on as I see a painful life, but Im also scared of killing myself. I’ stuck in between, anyone here feel the same way?
I’m a 32 year old male and I feel like a loser.
Can anyone here relate?
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I’m two years older than you, and yes, I can relate.
I wish I can click on your name and know your story, but can’t seem to do it from here.
How long have you felt like this?
The loser thing has gotten worse as I’ve gotten older and more isolated. But… Idk… My honest experience is that I just bring myself down if I think too much about it. For me, I think most of my problems stem from fear, addiction, laziness. I have thrown away many chances for those reasons.
I think you just need to find some people that are good for you. Idk. Tell me your story?
I would, but I’m at work right now, I can type it out once I get off work, later.
These days have just been so difficult.
Sure thing buddy. Well, at least you have a job. That’s not bad. I lost mine a month ago.
I have financial and family problems.
And at first hanging myself sounded like a really good idea, but now nothing sounds like a good idea.
Nothing sounds like a good idea. Not living, not suicide.
Although if I’m going to die anyways I still feel like dying before I experience any more pain, is the best way to go.
Do you have an issue that causes pain. I’m referring to physical pain.
No physical pain, but Im scared of even thinking about it. I hate how their is always pain in a natural death. It’s like why are we even here?
So you’re afraid of living because you’re afraid of dying? Everyone is afraid of dying! At least until the time comes.
Something is wrong with me it seems. All I think about is the inevitable.
I guess at best is a struggle with some success, at worst is failure on top of failure, with pain on top of that. I really wish life was different.
I was raised christian and I beleived in heaven and I thought I was going to heaven, but after reading the bible I developed many doubts and now I think maybe there is nothing after life or if there is accor ding to the bible most will go to hell.
So it went from very good news to me to very bad news. And if I get anymore bad news I can’t seem to take it anymore. I’m really sad.
I’m stuck in the same place, can’t imagine enduring this life but don’t know about facing death either. I’m 31, no job, no friends, no money. Just found out about some new health problems last month that mean my life might really never be the same. I feel trapped between two miserable choices too. Suffer in this life or give up.
Maybe loser dudes like us should team up. I don’t mean online, not some incel stuff. More like IRL to get our lives back in order…
I’m in a similar situation. Only I’m much older (54) and female.
U seem like a very nice person clipped wings. I read some of your comments and u seem like a positive person.
Thank you. Perhaps I’m already dead.
Hey, I’m 59 male and feeling the same way. Stuck and hating every minute of my life. I want out but too worried about the wife being left to deal with my mess. I feel everyone would be better off without me in the picture.
I am a career fuck up. I can try to redeemed myself. But if I do and stick around then I get to deal with assholes all along the way and then best part: have a nice socially acceptable (read: painful) death.
26 years old I can go back and forth I started medicating via alcohol to help with my anxiety it calms me down but I know as I drink alcohol it causes the suffering of those who care because it helps with my mental problems I don’t trust psych drugs or medication due to side effects and fear of becoming a school shooter, so I rather be a young binge drinker, problem drinker, alcoholic which I know is dangerous I do need to watch my booze but I calms the nerves but depending on my state of mind the alcohol can be good or bad due to bipolar and all.
I’m more afraid of life than death…. absolutely terrified of people and life and how they seem to run the show.
but in order to complete suicide I have to do some things and that’s been hard on me and rather scary.
Like what if I fail the attempt? What if I’m left alive after? What if the terrifying folk find me? What if the terrifying folk corner me?
In the end it makes it seem like I am doing all of this for nothing… planning, calculating, getting worked up, getting pleased to almost be finished…….because the terrifying folk just ruin it usually nonetheless. They smash it into the ground, cold and heartless.
At this point, I am most afraid of surviving my attempt. I can’t fail an attempt is why I don’t attempt at random. I am a little afraid of waking up each day when I know I should have succeeded in my attempt 5 years back. But I try not to fear, because all is running smooth at the moment.
I am afraid of being sold out on my conquest. I am afraid if I do such as try to purchase a gun or pills from strangers to make the act more simple for me, that I will be sold out and it will make things actually more complicated. That is my biggest fear. The one that makes me rip out my hair and smash my head on the concrete.
I try not to fear because I have everything worked out and am set to be out of the most terrifying situation in the next 2-3 weeks. (I have been held hostage in a terrifying household for 1 year 7 months…… why I am on this site to begin with)
Then I will be out of the most terrifying situation.
I do fear they will follow me once I leave. Then they will sick the officials on me as usual. Usually with the terrifying prophesy they have set up my character with, a click of their predatious heels and I am being put in handcuffs. A snap of their fingers, and I am being tortured.
I am not afraid to die, I am afraid to be trapped in a terrible life.
29 and my life’s been ruined by mental illness since my mid teens. I hate every minute of living.