Im so sick and fucking tired of trying to get through the day.People jus get on my nerves and give me hard times in one way or the other.Im so tired of self motivatin me constantly evryday to keep me frm commiting suicide.But I jus cant take it anymore..Life is harsh and hard.College fkin sucks ….
I will probably end my life next month after I meet up with my family and school friends.Ive been feelin suicidal for the past 8 months or so and i dont really see the point of living.And im feelin too bad bcoz I was really happy and satisfied with my life until the age of 17 and now its jus the exact opposite.Thinking abt my past glories make me very depressd of the person I am nw.
Im havin abt a month left to live.Will try to contribute atleast a bit from my side to this cruel and pathetic world…..:((((((((((
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What kind of suicide have you been thinking of?
Probably hanging myself…..
I feel very suicidal. I’m probably not the person you want to talk to. But I’m sure I would trade you spots, after reading a bit about you.
Sounds tough what you are going through, but your situation sounds temporary.
My situation looks bad for a very long time, I’m talking decades, and I feel i will still be in a bad situation.
I think you will be ok.
I agree,you may feel that my pblms may be temporary,but the intensity can only be felt by that person .You get what I say?
Hope you’ll be alright.
Mind sharing what makes you suicidal?
It’s difficult to explain what is making me suicidal. It’s a combination of things. And every thing seems to be going wrong, no matter how hard I try to fix it.
I understand what you mean by intensity is different for everyone, there are people who can deal with more and there are people who are willing to deal with more.
I might be able to deal with my situation, maybe. But I’m not willing, I’ve had happy moments, but I been having many difficult moments for a while now. And I don’t see my life getting better ever.
All problems are created by humans.Sometimes I feel like being all alone is better than being around a bunch of fake fucks who bring you down
The people you are with are only temporary. I know it might be intense, but you will not see them after a while.
Thats kinda right, but the thing is ive lost hope in this world.All are fake,everything and anything. Guess mayb this is all a phase where you realize the harsh truths of life.The only thing that kept me from committing suicide was because how sad my parents will be if they knw that im no more.
But Ive already plannd my suicide like about a couple of months before. I jus hav to execute it ….
What kind of plan do you have?
@definitelyworried
Yea i get it.I assume that it’s either social issues or financial thats troubling you?
I really hope you get alright.
A really bad family snd financial problem.
My family is torturing me everyone in their own way. And I might have gotten myself in a legal problem accidently. It could ruin a clean record I have worked for really hard. I’m afraid I may be inevitably become homeless, with no way out. One of my family members was diagnose with a horrible cancer and it could ruin our financial structure. The problem is that my family can fix it but they are deciding to make bad decisions for really weird reasons. It’s really hard to explain.
Im really sorry to hear that.I know it feels like hell to go through an awful lot.I hope that the legal problem isnt so serious. Hope you find peace..
May I know how old you are and are you a male?
My plan is fairly simple.Short drop suspension and eventually be unconscious within 10 seconds or so and die within 10+ minutes
That is the same suicide plan I have right now too.
I wish I had that assisted suicide juice, it looks physically painless.
Yea u mean euthanasia? My thoughts exactly.Its fairly painless..
Yes euthanasia, it should be given to who ever wants to die. Did you see that 12 year old girl she hanged herself, could have been easier with euthanasia. Outcome would have been the same, just less painful.
Well maybe I’m wrong I’m sure suicide would be much more common if they gave euthanasia to who ever wants to die. I probably would have taken it long ago.
Yes It would be better if they give it to anyone who needs it.Yea heard about the girl who hanged herself.Sad isn’t it that kids as young as 12 commit suicide? How the world has changed?? I would hav taken it at any cost if it was available.
Im the type of person who tells other people to never give up and go on,but i can barely take care of my own self..What a pity :((
U sound like a good guy. I’m 32 years old male.
The potential legal problem I could have is fraud. I accidentally typed wrong info that should have been correct, in an application for health care, honest mistake with potenting serious concequenses.
Yea but being a good person has its serious downsides in this cruel world.How long has the case been going on.It’s sad the good ppl suffer and people that are causing pain and sufferings to other get away with it.
Hope things will get better.I really hope the best to happen to u.
And I’ve created an account here to jus vent out my frustrations as people don’t understand what it is like to be depressed.It’s not that I want it,it’s jus that it doesn’t go away as easy as people say.
I created an account here to talk to other suicidal people. To see if anyone out there is a similar situation.
I’m sorry to hear about your depression.
Do you beleive in God?
Sometimes it’s comforting to know that there are countless people out there with the same problems that we face.Makes us feel that we’re not alone.I don’t exactly believe in a God.You can say that I’m kinda spiritual. But i don’t believe in a person who is a God.
What about you?
I was born and raised christian, at one time I had no doubt about God, that’s before I read the bible and started questioning it. Now I’m not really sure, which makes it even more difficult for me.
If God is there he is totally punishing me, otherwise it’s difficult for me to beleive in spirituality.
Sometimes I don’t beleive in God, but I will still be asking for forgiveness before I die, if I get a chance.
Do you beleive the spirit lives on?
Even I was born and raised as a Christian. The thing which nulls my belief is that why Am I suffering as if I’m in hell even without dying??I feel like im experiencing hell even without dying.But at the same time when I really feel low or when im about to attempt suicide I ask God for forgiveness just like you said.
Tbh I don’t believe that the spirit lives on.Guess after death it will just be like as if you’re asleep.But I may be wrong on this one.
Wow, you and I feel the same way about after death. I also think it will be like when you are asleep. But you will never wake up.
I don’t understand why God would allow people to be born only to suffer and be sent to hell. That just seems evil.
Yes we’re on same terms on that one.Yep that’s way too evil to allow people to suffer and then send them back to hell or whatever(acc to the bible).I’m considering to drop out of college and do something else.I’ve chosen engineering as my major and it’s really hard and eating my brains.Probably maybe I’m not cut out for all this.
I cant advise you on that. I didn’t go to college, I got my real estate licence but that may be taken away from me, due to the potential legal issues.
I guess I would say if you can pass your classes you should do it, since you are there.
If you can’t, I know you will feel bad, but at least you have a clean record and you can apply to many other jobs.
I have hope that I can pass my classes.But the crippling depression is so worse that sometimes I skip lectures to stay in bed all day thinking about ending my life.Life was never supposed to turn out this way for me.Wish I just disappeared.
Talk to jdoe, he is in college too, I beleive. I better get going. If things ever get better for me I will leave a post, if my posts stop with a negative one, means I killed myself. I can’t plan when I’m going to kill myself I will have to do it at the heat of the moment.
It’s just too dificult to set a date and time of when I’m going to do it, but I’m sure one of theses days I’m just going to feel like that’s enough and at that moment I’m going to do it.
May I know who is jdoe? College is basically stress.Im paying to be stressed.I just can’t find the good in it.Plus I’m abroad in a country worse than my native. My reason for coming here was due to the tuition being affordable.But all I got here was depression and a lack of will to live.
I just learned that money,cars,etc are important in life. But if you don’t have the will to live,then basically all the above doesn’t even matter.
I’m sorry you’re about to end your life.I’m jus really praying and hoping that you don’t do it(even though I don’t believe in God).I sincerely hope that you get better.Maybe try talking with a therapist?Have you tried that?
don’t do it.
Im trying sooo hard to stay alive.But I really can’t take it anymore.