I am petty.
My problems are petty. I should be okay. I shouldn’t want to die. I have a loving family. I have people who care about me. I have love and support, but I still wish I was dead.
I have friends who have actual problems, and they’re okay. There are people in the world who have it worse than I could imagine, but they manage. There are people on this website who have actual, significant problems. Yet, I still want to die, even though my problems are stupid and insignificant.
I don’t understand why I feel this way, or why I can’t be okay. I don’t understand why it’s so hard for me to get over my irrational problems.
I just don’t understand why I’m so petty.
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Have you tried medication?
I’ve not tried medication, and I don’t really want to. I guess it can be irrational, but I avoid using any kind of drug, even if it’s for medicinal uses. I’ve also been told that depression medication makes the user feel foggy and disconnected, so that makes me want to avoid it even more.
Besides, I shouldn’t need it in the first place. Thank you for the suggestion though.
If you are going to kill yourself for no reason, I would try medication before that.
That’s a good point. I didn’t think about that. Although, I don’t really want to live, even though it’s incredibly petty.
You are not petty. Pain and suffering is relative. You cannot compare your struggles with anyone else’s.
I have been told for the entirety of my existence, for 22 years, how “lucky I am”. I hear about how much everyone loves me and how ungrateful I am for this life, how I should be so grateful I live the life I do. When people say things like it is so easy to feel guilt and to hate yourself for feeling this way but you need to remember it is not your fault! People will never understand what it is like to want to take your own life unless they have experienced that feeling too. Those that do know what is like also know that regardless of how fantastic someone’s life is, we are only human, subject to illness and suffering.
You are only human. Your pain is relative to you and you only. How you feel is not your fault so try not to hate yourself so much for it.
I think its OK to be petty and still feel this way. It completely depends on how much pain and pressure our minds can get soaked up with. Yea, some of us reach beyond saturation and still alive. Just bcz others have bigger problems doesn’t mean your feelings are any less. Its not our fault, so don’t feel bad.
I remember feeling the same for decades. I thought, “why can’t I handle problems like everyone else does?” “why can’t I manage my stress during exams, my job, or in relationships without freaking out and quitting?” It took me decades to stop comparing myself to others because it really is subjective to your own experience. I’m 47 years old now. I guess what helped me out of this thinking is a combination of life experiences and medication for depression, anxiety, and bipolar disorder.
Existential angst, or you just haven’t done anything compelling enough to make life feel worthwhile to justify the suffering. Life is suffering and this is why taking on responsibility is what gives meaning and then happiness comes from the sacrifice. Nobody tells us that though. We are told to seek happiness mainly which is short lived.
Are you actually though? Or has someone simply told you that you are petty? Do you have any goals?? Are you trying to accomplish something??
Are there people out there who would like to accomplish the same or similar things that you can team up with??
There is usually a reason to live.
I have a huge headache. But honestly, I wish you well.
Try not to feel guilty about something. There are things you probably may or may not know…..but you know…..it’s mostly just people hurting other people out there or profiting off of them unfairly. Be kind to yourself. <3 <3 <3
No one has called me petty, but I do need someone else to tell me who I am? I don’t have any goals. I haven’t really ever had any long-term goals. I just roll with whatever life decides to give.
I’m sure there is a reason to live, but I’m not sure I have a desire to find it. I know it’s selfish-and incredibly petty in my case-but don’t want to live.
I hope your headache is gone by now. They are very unpleasant.
Also sometimes choosing friends is hard…..try to find someone who will listen to you…..honestly have never had much of a best friend……but that doesn’t mean good friends don’t exist. Try to figure out what you might want or need in a friend. You just might find it. Sometimes you gotta be open and ask questions without necessarily being judgemental. I honestly think we tend to judge ourselves the hardest.
I don’t think any problem is irrational persay. <3