I feel like I am completely useless. I have attempted 2 times before and was unsuccessful. I am 29 years old. I was married for 7 years as of the 1st of this month. I took a shot gun to my marriage. I think I am bipolar but I have never been seen for it, mainly cause I was am to afraid to actually be diagnosed with it. My marriage has turned to hell. I have been in many relationships and only ever loved one woman and I know Ill never love another woman like I loved my wife. I was never a good husband though. I would say stuff like Yea I totally like this or that and go back on my word. I had it really one sided if you can get what I am trying to say. I have been thinking of killing myself as of lately. I even bought some lime sulfur and a bucket cause I already have toilet bowl cleaner. I got everything I need to do to go peacefully and yet no one could care less. My soon to be ex wife is asleep on the couch sleeping and I might as well be a million miles away. This has been weighing me down for the longest now and I just felt the need to do this somewhere. I feel like I am just a burden on everything. I hurt so much and really no one could care the only one I love wants nothing to do with me I just wanna scream at her, tell her how much I am hurting but I know deep down it will fall on deaf ears.
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How were you a not a good husband?
Matrimony is mostly holy, it’s all religious dooda but isn’t all about love. If you are the religious kind then you should try to connect with your religion. You will then get closer to god and that will get you closer to your wife, if you love her.
I am willing to listen if you have more to say on how you failed as a husband.