You made me feel alive,
You made me feel like a person,
I took that for granted and ended up ruining the most happiest moments of my life.
I wasn’t ready for you and you weren’t ready for me.
I couldn’t handle anything, everything upset me, I was a broken mess right from the start, I did and said so many wrong things, I ended up hurting someone I truly loved.
You simply couldn’t handle or deal with me and eventually you had enough.
I do not blame you anymore, I know I used to do that all the time.
Only because I genuinely believed it because I was completely blind to my wrongs.
Years of self reflecting, I still haven’t really let go.
I reached out my hand earlier, and broke into tears when I realised yours would never reach back.
You gave me life in so many different ways,
And for a long time I believed you took it away too.
But now I see that I was taking it away from myself, because I was simply afraid.
There are holes that will never be filled, but that doesn’t mean I can’t build bridges over them.
Memories that can’t be erased but that doesn’t mean I can’t move on from them.
A name, that will mean the world to me all the way to the grave.
All I really hope for, is that you’re doing okay.
And you will never see this,
But I know now that’s okay.
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This was beautiful
“There are holes that will never be filled, but that doesn’t mean I can’t build bridges over them.”
That may be my new favourite quote.
Whoever you wrote this to, I hope they have found their peace, and I’m glad you have found yours.
Agreed
This, 110%.
I killed my marriage before it even began and now my wife doesn’t even care if I’m alive. She wants nothing to do with me. I hope that when the final blow of divorce is struck, that I find the same inner peace as you.
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This, 110%.
I killed my marriage before it even began and now my wife doesn’t even care if I’m alive. She wants nothing to do with me. I hope that when the final blow of divorce is struck, that I find the same inner peace as you.
Wow, it feels like you’re going through the exact same hell as I am.