I think I’m one of the very few people who has a significant religious motivation for killing themselves. I can’t find any resources for this issue.
Usually when religious people decide to off themselves, it’s in spite of, not because of, their beliefs. So religious resources aren’t really equipped to help me.
And seeking help from nonreligious people— whose empathy centers seem to completely shut down whenever they encounter someone like me (a number of y’all come to mind) and whose only solution to the problem seems to be deconverting me, which won’t help— never works out either.
What I’m trying to say is: I feel really alone. Alone, and trapped, and bitter as hell.
I’m absolutely fucked, aren’t I?