You know what I think sucks?
That no matter how much we try, no matter how long we tried, no matter how many different things we tried, if we don’t get better it’s because we “didn’t try hard enough”.
My Doctor wrote in my referral that I was apathetic about my recovery and it really cut me to the core. What more does she want from me? To jump for joy when nothing ever seems to work?
What more are we supposed to do when medicines, inpatient treatment, group therapy, individual therapy ect ect ect … doesn’t work.
This is what those bright and shiny “reach out for help” posters brush under the carpet. We are the forgotten ones. If we are not better after reaching out we mustn’t be “trying hard enough”.
I hate that mentality.
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That’s messed up. 🙁 If depression is an actual condition then it’s not the same as simply being apathetic or sad, right? So it’s not the same if a “normal” person feels those things…
But yeah, we live in a pretty demanding world… study study study, work work work… all for what, really?
Always got to be smart, healthy, sociable, and overall perfect…
It’s hard doing those things…
… I have to admit though, I’ve been kind of wanting a girlfriend whose empathetic to understsnd my problems and keep up a conversation with me if I ever get into more serious stuff to say, but maybe the only real problem I have is the people I’ve dealt with on Facebook and in real life and most people aren’t like that on this level, they can actually hold a simple conversation.
In school, all I cared about at some point were passing grades and not even getting A’s and B’s though I tried my best. I just didn’t really care and I’m wondering if it even matters now…
I just wish I could live a life where I didn’t have to feel worked to death in some way and I could take life easy and actually properly enjoy it, you know?
“subject shows little motivation or contentment. it’s like he’s depressed or something. doesn’t he know unhappy people need to be the most positive and outgoing?”