mistakes

hello.

when i was really young i was taught to do sexual things to other people. i was taught by a female. i’m a female.

i went to a really religious school, and i never felt like i belonged because i was the only girl who like girls. i was so fucking young, i didn’t understand that i wasn’t normal.

i was also emotionally and sometimes physically abused in my house. and when you’re fucked up, you tend to urge to fuck up other people. so what can i say? i was a *****.

i’ve always hated myself. always. and i’ve never understood why people are so fucking happy, why they smile.

i had a tendency to bully my friends, even though i wouldn’t call them friends. because i was so weird they never understood me. now i don’t have any friends. none.

and i hate when people are telling me that i’m just being dramatic. like i was done with life before i met you *****.

i think i’m a mistake. because i’m weird af and i can’t seem to keep people company. i have problems when it comes to people leaving me. if someone walks away from me i think *oh no what did i do wrong this time what can i do better next time FUCK. forget it who cares it’s not the first time someone left me .FUCK. the fuck was i thinking*. and that’s my problem. i think too much.

i’ve always hated myself, and i’ve always been weird. (since i was really young up until now) and i’ve never had any real friends.

i’m a mistake and if i was never born none of this would have ever happened.