wow…..
about a month ago my dad got married, and we moved to a new city. And what really sucks is that I am not allowed to talk to my mom at all. I have no friends. I am homeschooled, I never get to go outside unless it’s Saturday. My dad mentally abuses me, and tell’s me he is ashamed of me and not proud of me. And how he wants to send me away. About 4 months ago I became seriously depressed. I’ve been having suicidal thoughts. I also started to self-harm. I have becoming addicted to painkillers. And sometimes I just sit there and ask myself, where did my life go wrong? Still trying to answer that question.
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Is it just him that says you can’t talk to your mom, or is it a court thing? If the former you may have some way.
Where exactly has he said he’s wanted to send you away to? If it’s just a general sense then he’s just being a bully which judging by the rest can apply anyway. Maybe it’s his backwards way of trying to motivate you (some people think all criticism is constructive and helpful when it’s not) but it’s not working. Try not to take it to heart. He may be your father but he’s still one person and his standards aren’t all that matters.
Maybe look up an anon group, even online for the pain killers.. people who could help you get through it. Id say ask your father about seeing a doc but that might not work out, so at least there’s options of some kind.
I remember trying to look for support when I was depressed and some people got really rude and critical of me and maybe even acting likw they were helping me regardless too which I found to be complete BS…
It’s as if I was a bad guy, purposely making other people depressed. o.o
I almost actually wantded to and see if they can understand if I did, if knowing what true despair is could make them more empathetic… instead of angrier, somehow, idk…
Your dad sounds horrible…
He should get in trouble for that, and you should be able to get taken care of somehow by people who actually care about you. 🙁