I have to finish this project. I have to get a couple hours sleep. I have to call the landlord in the morning to try to save us. I have work in the morning. I have to make sure I’m prepared for school next week.
I have to focus. I have to focus. I have to focus.
It’s so hard to focus. We could lose everything for no goddamn reason, just because my mom and my landlord won’t get along. I’ve been working hard. I thought money would solve our problems, but shit’s always unnecessarily complicated. My mom doesn’t want me to interfere, but whatever she’s doing isn’t working, and the landlord might not listen to me.
I can’t take this anymore. It’s too much stress. I can’t handle this. I feel like I could get a heart attack any moment now. But I don’t really want to die, I just don’t want to experience losing everything. Dead people can’t live on the street. Dead people have no belongings. I don’t want the trauma of losing everything. I’m sorry if you reading this have experienced that kind of loss, and it’s good if you’ve come out of it stronger, but I don’t want this.
I just need to focus on this project and get some damn sleep. Focus. If I don’t finish this, it will seriously fuck up my situation even worse. I should have finished this months ago. Focus.
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ikr I waste too much time being depressed it’s actually annoying. But we just can’t seem to clear our minds, can we? “Not now, please” we beg, but you can’t stop it
Exactly. Every time I have a holiday from class, I get depressed. I don’t really have time to waste because exams are coming closer and closer.
I waste like 3 hours just sitting there depressed and then I gotta start schoolwork and it’s like 8 pm and then I’m up until 3:30 am and then I wake up at 6 to go to school. I’m so tired. Even right now I know I’m barely gonna sleep tonight again. I wish I had more motivation. It’s kinda funny how my problems in life don’t create my depression, my depression creates my problems