I feel like there’s honestly no point in anything now. Everyday, I’m more tired than ever, and I can’t really find the motivation I need to get out of bed most days.
Sometimes I think that maybe everyone would be better off without me.
I think of the ways I could quietly leave this earth.
Nobody would miss me.
I think of what I would leave behind for others to see once I’m gone.
But then, there are days where I find meaning in life. Those days are rare, but they do happen.
On those days, I feel truly happy, like nothing can get in the way of my happiness.
And then it all comes crashing down again, and I am back where I was before.
I wish I could reach out and tell my friends how I feel, but the simple act of pouring out my problems to them takes so much energy.
I feel so alone.
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Well if you’re feeling alone at least you have all of us here for you :). I know what you mean about those good days though. You remember you felt good but you can’t imagine actually feeling it. Pouring out your problems can help you though. It allows those feelings to be released and not feel like they are building up, just make sure you really think about WHO you talk to. Think about how they might react and if it could affect them negatively. If you have someone close I say go ahead and explain and maybe they can help. 🙂
Better to stay in bed.. don’t get warped