He never has to wonder. How many people wish they knew what it felt like to mean the world to someone else? To be their everything? To always be on their mind and in their heart every waking second? To be the most if not only meaningful thing in their lives? He knows…
It isn’t what people expect. It’s empty, unfulfilling, unimportant, sad, and tragic. To be loved is meaningless. For him to be aware of and try to understand what I feel for him (which is beyond his comprehension) doesn’t let him experience it or feel it. For all intents and purposes, that knowledge is meaningless. My emotions aren’t “for” him. They do him no good. My love for him is my own… What he means to me, and why – being a blazing sun in an otherwise cold and dark void. Those feelings are mine. For me. As much as I wish I could share this wonder, I can’t. As much as I wish it could be meaningful to him, or positive to him, or bring him happiness; it can’t. My feelings are my own. They are about him, but not for him. They’re in my mind, and are the core of my very being. Something that can only be seen from within. To me they are everything, while to others they might as well not exist.
What does it feel like to be loved? The harsh reality is… nothing.
But what does it feel like to love? Everything…
I feel like this revelation should somehow ease the pain, or grant some higher perspective or enlightenment… But no… It all just sucks.
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I have a quote. “I’ll be your warrior, and I will be your love.”
Love can’t never be obtained. It is invisible. It varies from what we know about Time.
You will be able to know what that means. Giving orders. Not trying to play some charms and wait from a reaction upon. Or, to move on an be surprised that has a better memory than oneself.
You can see their Failing. You will Feel that. It will get uncomfortable and you must have to Lie.
*can never
What does it feel like to be loved…
I suppose passively it would be nothing.
But I view love as more than a feeling. It’s an action, influencing words and deeds.
It’s usually through those that a directed love is felt to some degree, more than the three words can convey even if not to a level reciprocation
But yeah, usually sucks. Sometimes those emotions don’t do the feeler much good either.
That’s sometimes the greatest, unconsciously all the right moves!