im so over it all. The constant trying and getting no where. Distracting myself hoping it’ll somehow change everything. Helping other people with their problems when no ones there for me. Im not strong enough to be alone but most the people in my life aren’t treating me the way I treat them / deserve to be treated and I know as far as being a kind genuine person who’s there for people, I am. But its either be used and get hurt or be alone and sit here rotting in my own self loathingness and go crazy. Which is it ?