Haven’t been suicidal in about four months, I’d say. Finally starting to feel suicidal again for the first time in months. Any time i start to feel good, it NEVER lasts for long. I’ve finally realized that feelings like happiness and relief are only temporary, unfortunately, and that feelings of anger, sadness, depression, grief, and anxiety will always be much more prevalent in my life.
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In everybody’s life is the same.
TV&Cinema convinced us it was the opposite.
Life is a shit indeed…you always get suicidal again and its always worse than last times.
I’m tired!!
If it’s the first time in 4 months, you’re doing hella good! It’s true that it doesn’t just go away forever, there’s gonna be bad days, but what matters is you still have those good days, and a bad day or week or longer shouldn’t discourage you because it will pass. For so long, every time it started again for me, I’d get so discouraged because “I thought I was better” but I’m starting to learn the pattern, and I’m starting to get better at patiently riding out my depression waves without getting too doomed over it. Reminding myself that the feelings are temporary and not real is what helps me survive them!