Is this a given? Do you have this planned out, or can you be salvaged? As someone who gets suicidal pretty often, I wonder if I can help. Please let me know. I DO know that the holiday season can be extremely difficult for many people. God knows, I’m not looking forward to it myself.
Ditto, I am trying to end my life as soon as possible, so I’m with you there. You say November…God, Ive been trying to end my life for… at least ten years…..can’t figure out how to or god knows I would have ten years back…..hopefully I complete in the next couple months
This may sound like your generic pity comment, but I am honestly sorry that you feel like a burden. I know what the feeling’s like. I have felt like a burden since a child. Not because of my family, but because of those around me and how I view myself. I don’t see any part of me that carries worth and often wish someone else took my place instead of me. They say there’s a reason why we are put on this planet, I guess some (like me) we’re just here to give up and die, make room for someone better. I once read an article that claimed our births were a one in a trillion chance. Amazing, huh? This either makes you feel special or even more horrible. Sadly, that’s the latter.
Ruin things is what I do best. Often times people try to convince me that it’s not my doing, it’s there’s. Yeah right. Tell me how so all of my partners leave as quick as they came. Why is it that I can make old crushes fall out of love with me so fast? Even my old best friend, one I knew for years, when he admitted to me that he loved me and we dated for 1 week before he walked away. Even friends give up on me after a while. They go quiet. And I’m left wondering what I did wrong.
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Is this a given? Do you have this planned out, or can you be salvaged? As someone who gets suicidal pretty often, I wonder if I can help. Please let me know. I DO know that the holiday season can be extremely difficult for many people. God knows, I’m not looking forward to it myself.
I just have nothing. Everything is fucking terrible. I’m just a burden. I ruin everything.
Enjoy your last couple of months.
I am going to try to stick it out for another 6 or 7 months, myself, but it will be very difficult.
I want things to end right now.
Ditto, I am trying to end my life as soon as possible, so I’m with you there. You say November…God, Ive been trying to end my life for… at least ten years…..can’t figure out how to or god knows I would have ten years back…..hopefully I complete in the next couple months
This may sound like your generic pity comment, but I am honestly sorry that you feel like a burden. I know what the feeling’s like. I have felt like a burden since a child. Not because of my family, but because of those around me and how I view myself. I don’t see any part of me that carries worth and often wish someone else took my place instead of me. They say there’s a reason why we are put on this planet, I guess some (like me) we’re just here to give up and die, make room for someone better. I once read an article that claimed our births were a one in a trillion chance. Amazing, huh? This either makes you feel special or even more horrible. Sadly, that’s the latter.
Ruin things is what I do best. Often times people try to convince me that it’s not my doing, it’s there’s. Yeah right. Tell me how so all of my partners leave as quick as they came. Why is it that I can make old crushes fall out of love with me so fast? Even my old best friend, one I knew for years, when he admitted to me that he loved me and we dated for 1 week before he walked away. Even friends give up on me after a while. They go quiet. And I’m left wondering what I did wrong.