Really Struggling..
September 25th, 2018 by soul_pilgrim
I feel very alone in this world. I have experienced already a lot in life, the good and the bad. I am still in my late twenties, but I feel like I have lived long enough. I don’t really have a desire to continue with life. I feel incredibly guilty, because I do have a good life. But I just don’t want it. It’s really exhausting for me to live.. I don’t want to cause any harm or pain to anyone.. but living is really painful for me. I just wish I would have never been born. I also really don’t want to die painfully or violently. I just want to peacefully end this existence.. not just to vanish. I want to celebrate everything I was given in this life, say thank you to every person who touched my heart, feel deep gratitude, see the beauty of earth one more time and then just be done with it.
Sep 25, 2018 @ 11:49:16
I, too, am done with life.
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Sep 25, 2018 @ 16:48:45
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Sep 25, 2018 @ 23:21:39
Are you sure that after experiencing that kind of ‘childlike innocence’ of rose-coloured glasses 1 last time, you would want to go?
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Sep 26, 2018 @ 05:05:02
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Sep 26, 2018 @ 19:04:35
There remain some of us, though, who are highly sensitive and see/experience more depth in relationships (platonic or otherwise), smell every fragrance of the wind, hear what is both said and left unsaid.
It may not have crossed your mind that you may very well be that shimmer of light in your loved ones lives who they know they can reach to when they are facing something most the world would simply shove off with some insensitive euphamism.
I know it’s not easy to fight. I know life is the toughest battle anyone faces, but its even more so for us with mental health disorders like depression.
Fight. One day at a time. One moment at a time.
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Sep 25, 2018 @ 23:22:23
I do fear life more than suicide I think because then you have to live with pain and agony and it doesn’t cease in an instant ..
I know I never want to get older..
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Sep 25, 2018 @ 23:25:52
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Sep 28, 2018 @ 01:44:50
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Sep 28, 2018 @ 01:45:30
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Sep 25, 2018 @ 23:24:43
I think that there is still some hope inside you that may spark into a fire for life if you were to find such beauty and golden hearted people within your life.
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