lonely

You’re far from alone. I’m 43 years old. Had one somewhat serious relationship a bit over 20 years ago. A year and a half, wasted. She was content with doing everything online instead of in person, despite us only living a little over an hour away from each other. I’ve had more meaningful conversations with the bedroom wall. Then I found out she was seeing another guy behind my back. That was my first real suicide attempt that I can still see a bit of the scars to this day. The only thing that stopped me was asking myself why I was going to punish/kill myself because of what this ***** did. I never recovered though. Every attempt at a relationship from that point on was still either complete disinterest in me, using me, or screwing with my head. So, trust me when tell you that I, as well as many others, can relate. Whether a relationship is worth all the trouble is something only you can decide.