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I get panick attacks almost every day. But before that I enjoyed an almost 2 years break. They come and go. When they came back it took me a few weeks to realize what they were, the symptoms were different, I just had the genuine impression I was dying. They hurt like hell, they are awful but they always end. If those people you pushed away
genuinely care about you, in time they will come back to you. Meanwhile, don’t try to fight your panic attacks and tell yourself you absolutely have to feel better. You are not pathetic, just feeling very low. However hard it I, just accept your attacks and see them for what they are: a massive stress explosion. Instead of beating yourself up just acknowledge when you are having one just tell yourself “Nope, I m not dying, I see you, you, wicked panic attack! You can’t make me believe otherwise, it is at least the hundred time I m going through this, I know better by know! Ok, I’m safe, this just annoying and painful and I am going to wait until it ends, and then I am going to take it easy and everything is going to be all right”. That’s how I managed to get rid of them two years ago anyway. I m home sick today and exhausted by too much stress but I think they will go away soon now that I know that I have them again I ll manage.