Once upon a time…
I had lived experiences.
I had a story in which I wanted to tell.
I had a message that I wished to share.
I had created a posting about that experience here, on this very site, some time ago.
… then, one day…
I had chosen to remove myself (via the form of time/energy) and my postings from this service.
I had stated In my ‘final’ message post (which still lives somewhere within the dust-laden stacks of this site): “I came to share a story and ended up staying a few days longer than expected. I am proud to have encountered each and every person that I’ve spoken with; regardless of what may, or may not, have been said.”
I had meant each and every word of that, and I still do.
… but, unfortunately.
I had not been completely forthcoming.
I had failed to mention that part of my decision was out of self-preservation.
I had found positivity, and I had grown fearful of loosing that surrounded by these truths of others.
I had not fully considered all that came along with posting my experience.
Now, with that out of the way, I can write what it is I came back to write in the first place…
A few days ago, after essentially 7-years of general positivity, for a moment I found myself swirling within the darkest depths of my mind’s mind. An eerily familiar place that I have all but since forgotten. It only lasted that single moment before the fear, panic, and worry kicked in, heaving me back up from that place, and back to ‘reality’. Somewhere along the way, that moment was also a reminder for me not to fear the shared humanity that we, to me, are all a part of.
… so, to amend my closing words from my prior ‘final’ message post …
“My goal in life is simply to leave things better than the way I found them, because everything, even a single moment, knows no limits.”
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My goal is more difficult. I just want to end time, for the whole universe. I figured out following white hole theory, the universe is an eternally reoccurring evemt. Eons will pass, the suns will burn out, all mater in the universe will be torn apart and scattered then eventually be drawn back together and under its weight will cause a new big bang. As this reoccurance is eternal. I will be created and have the exact same experiences an infinite number of times. Thetefore the only action one can take that would have any meaning or purposewould be the elimination of time itself. This could be done theoretically using a super collider, LHC, to create a temporal bubble that spreads out at the speed of light and leaves nothing, nor even tine in its wake, thus ending eternnal reoccurance.
I will happily walk with you down the wonderfully woven web in which you have chosen to weave before me. After all, should I consider all of the variables which exist, whether what you say is true or not, this one seems to be the most pleasing in the current. I do; however, have but a single question to ask you. A simple one really. Where is it I may find individual humanity in it all? To clarify… I see creation, existence, events (even identical ones), ending, and once again creation, etcetera, etcetera; however, I can’t seem to find anything explaining a separation from uniqueness. You can have every single things, precisely as you stated it, and yet the fundamental essence that transcends Science, Religion, Logic, or what have you may still be unique to how it was lived by us, during that creation, in those events, before it was set to occur exactly on schedule. • So, I fully respect your goal. I even support your efforts as they come from the mind, but as one being, who has asked before, and will ask again, somewhere, somehow…. Please, make sure no question remains unanswered before you choose to flip that switch, as one should not forget Chance is also a sister of Fate and Destiny. I doubt Chance will take any oversight lightly.
Until… until. -Kev