blues of my soul

hello, again.
Today is blue, i..’m feeling blue.
i’m getting closer to the day everything will collapse…
i’m an illustrator and i’m more into painting these days… anyways.
Someone asked me today…what happened with my degree…BOY did i almost broke down, i was able to hold on to me a bit more…. just… you know? I live in México, a not so bad city in México, it’s true that we got corruption everyday, everywhere, it’s HORRIBLE, i… want to cry right now……. but i’m trying not to. you see… i worked on my thesis for almost 3 years, i gave my everything and more, the principal finally gave me green light! man! i WAS going to get my degree! i FINALLY did it! so she told me i could totes go and pay my final test for my paper! i WAS going to oficially have my degree as an illustrator! yes! hahaha, JOKE’S on MEE, i paid…wich is a huge amount of money…up until today i’m in reds and hungry, anyways… i paid… and y’know what i got? … “yeaaaaah, WOOPS sorry, you ARE NOT gonna get it, because WE say now that everything is wrong aaand we don’t like it! SO, soorry not soorry! btw thanks for my nre caar!”
i died… i seem to be stuck, i have tried to be okay, im NOT! i cry everyday, everytime someone says something about degree or the like… of course the police won’t do ANYTHING, no one! yay.
I… worked SO hard for 3 years or more… i made all the correction, everything they told me to erase, rewrite, shalaala… only to buy them a new car !
funny, uh? EACH single second i go deeper and deeper into a black hole that tells me to stop breathing and sleep forever, i…really…wanted …to have my degree. Now i’m almost poor and got nothing, hehe