wrote this rap/poem but dont remember doing it
thought i would share
hey family its me, um. mum and dad remember im your son
constant obsessions with weapons, oh looky there another gun
oh look at me im happy, im having fun, uh
im sorry for lying im tired and dissapointed
the world i see around me is colorless and disjointed
like someone shat on a round plate, rubbed it in my face and said
this is your fate. I not gonna swallow that rubbish. Imma walk at my own pace
look, heres the deal my heads gone wild and fuckin overheating
i feel nothing like a damn cold my body aint beating, nothing
im sad all the time untill i see that one girl, and i cant enjoy it
my brain soils it, kicks and spits on it, destroys it.
im too young, it wont last says my brain
i cant be happy anymore im going insane.
Too long its been without fun oh lord Too long its been since i was young.
now all i want to is to stalk the halls with a gun slung.
and murder all the little kiddies cus im the chosen one
im just a kid that i grew up quick, i miss my childhood im sick of this
im sick of fucking lying, im sick of talking, i feel like fuckin walking
off a cliff take them fucking kicks and fuckin kick em
them kicks better be pumped if i dont forgive em
still sipping a can, pew pew if i could, which i can
but i see my future and its brighter than a lamp
all i can do is wait, all i get is yelled at base.
my dad sits there and screams his ass of in my face.
Im not happy in my own fuckin castle no more
im not happy when my parents fuckin stomp on the floor
my mom got so damn angry she kicked a hole in the door
sit behind my screen and fuckin laugh at the gore
affinity for death and violence, my closets got a locked door
Hey look im wierd hey goddamnit look at me,
i have had the same damn attitude since i was three
look back and see my little self, writing bout guillotines
sitting in my room, no idea what columbine means
nobody even gives a shit
i have taken myself down a fuckin rabbit hole
my childhood was all like “well there i go “
the internet took my damn childhood away
my vision blurry and im tired i swear im gon sway
away from this place, pirate ship
and robots and aliens and all that shit
maybe my innocence was never meant to exist
or maybe i was supposed to experience
falling down that pit
murder murder druggie junkie
take another hit of the bong
look in the mirror i fucking hate me
i wont be here for long
weapons stockpiled out of the blue
VoDKa and REB look down at me
i know what im going to do
those robot loser die painfully