Does anyone else think about those that die with no effort? It’s sad, sure, but does it bother anyone else struggling with suicidal thoughts that there’s such a thing as an easy exit?
I mean, there isn’t an age exclusive set of people, it happens to a wide amount of people. One minute their living their lives, the next gone. Could be me or you any time. Wouldn’t it be pointless if we were ready to end it and cause so much more grief when we were around the corner from an easy exit?
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I’ve been trying to commit suicide for so long (13 years) and struggling because I don’t have a solid method, suicide is all I worry about but it hit me one day, that while I struggle to be able to commit suicide I’ll probably die of disease before I even get the chance to commit suicide.
Like I need out of my life. I worry all day and night how I’m going to commit, but there are just no opportunities. Oh well I am physically ill enough maybe disease will take me.
If we could die without having to kill ourselves
I don’t struggle with the thought, or rather the fact, I simply wish at times that I were one of the “lucky” ones. Case in point, the people sitting at the red light in Florida last year, waiting for the green light, as we all do, when a pedestrian bridge collapsed on them. Here one minute, waiting for the light to change, some texting messages or otherwise involved with their phones, maybe changing stations on the radio or checking out the car next to them, then, they’re just. . . gone. Crushed instantly with no warning. I have wondered if there were citizens of Nagasaki or Hiroshima contemplating suicide, maybe preparing their methods amidst a swirling sea of doubt and second thoughts when the trigger mechanism aboard the atomic weapons activated, leaving them and thousands of others just gone. How much simpler could it get? I’m not trying to be overly morbid, but wow, I’d love to just be instantly “gone.” The scenarios are virtually limitless, and oh how I’d love to be involved in one.
I was thinking about it while driving, and I drove past a deadly wreck. Pretty much every time I drive by a wreck I think about it, “That could have been me.” Then I think that I still could be, I commute 30 minutes to two hours a day, some of the time through rush hour.
I mean, in some ways a slow death is preferable, time to come to terms with it and stuff. I just have this romance with an external cause of death. My biggest obstacle to my own death is thinking what people would have thought of me, for going out the way I did. If I died in some accident I think people would be sad, but then again they wouldn’t be confused or angry.
Then again we talked about it in a class I took on suicide (how to prevent not how to commit), and the professor said that it’s pretty common for people to figure out how to hide their suicides.
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so I’m just saying some of those accidents may be less accidental. In your scenario maybe one of the people sitting under that bridge was the engineer that last inspected it, who was suicidal anyway and found an easy exit.
I’d venture a guess to say that many accidental deaths weren’t so accidental. I have envisioned an “accident” scenario for myself, but it would involve an innocent person, so that won’t happen. I do tend to ride my bicycle quite a bit without a helmet, which is sort of a passive aggressive taunting of fate in a way, but also one that could leave me seriously injured instead of dead, which wouldn’t be fun.
I don’t know. I suppose it wouldn’t be too difficult to conjure up a fatal situation that wouldn’t carry the suicide stigma, although it would require careful planning. Hats off to the engineer who can plan a bridge collapse that precisely! I am still just almost awe struck by the nature of that accident, and I think about when I sit under bridges – those vehicles were flattened, then there was one which was only partly crushed, and the driver walked away from it ok. Wow.
Idk if that many people hide their suicide. Perhaps, people are different but I know for sure (I mean like sure, you cant know anything for sure but yea) that if I one day killed myself I wouldnt have hidden it. That idea seems so weird and unsettling to me. Like I am going to die anyway what do I have to lose? Why not just tell the truth? Even if it hurts someone, I think its better than to just die with that kind of a lie, without anyone knowing the truth about your life and therefore without anyone being able to understand you. I would try to explain it as much as possible, be transparent and hope they would understand it and try to ensure no one would blame themselves for it. I personally just value true more than kindness. True is reality. If you lie you and everyone else arent living in reality anymore. If I lie about my suicide I just create an illusion that all these people will live in forever. I wouldn´t like that. I would rather make em sad or angry.
His point was that we just don’t know how many people plan and hide their own death, just like we don’t know how many people fake their death and disappear. Why they do it is usually insurance money, there was a lengthy bit of the presentation covering who and how insurance companies investigate suicides. Every single death is investigated this way, usually looking for people with reasons to die. Chances are some of those people didn’t try to die, but they did have reasons that being dead would appear better.
I’m personally the worst person to fake a death, mine or anyone else’s. First I’m a horrible liar under pressure. Second, my risk factors are pretty public. Third, I’m uninsurable for life insurance.
I could see doing it for the money though, because one of my major obstacles is that I care about those people that would benefit from my insurance payout.