Im in pain…

im in pain. Waking up everyday my body aces every bone in my body’s hurts if it’s not my hips it’s my ankles if it’s not my ankles it’s my shoulders my wrist my back everything is constantly hurting. Sleeping hurts walking hurts I feel like my bones are so small they can just snap on me whenever  It’s  become an everyday to thing I’m not gonna say I’m use to it cause I’m not I still wake up in pain wanting to cry almost every morning. It’s become a challenge that I need to overcome. People have spoken to me about it a lot and I use to let it slide say nothing is going on but just the other month I gave in and tried to accept the fact the I have a eating problem it’s not I eat to much it’s I don’t need eat enough or not at all.i have tried to tell myself to get help and people have told me to get help I’m just so lost on where to start, I don’t wan an be judged and I don’t wanna hurt my mum either. My mum hasn’t been through this with my sister and it hurt her a lot it really didn’t and I don’t wanna be the one to put her through that again. I cry all the time about it because I can never win I hated my body when I was fat and now I’m like this and I hate it even more. All my friends have such good bodies and are heathy I just need to find the courage to speak for help if it’s with a friend or family member. It’s not just a little thing anymore it’s affecting my day to day life.

I hate pitty and I want non of it I also hate being told everything so gonna be alright because in the end I know it’s not. I’m not posting this for pitty I’m posting it because I do need to speak help and fast because I can’t stand being in the constant pain I’m in….