today was my birthday

It’s been two years since I last posted and four years since I first posted. Time flies quickly when you don’t notice it. A lot has happened in the two years since, and yet a lot has stayed the same. This year I am confident that my life is heading in a direction I like.

It only took me until 29 before I gained enough confidence to take calculated risks and fully become the adult I wanted to be at 19. I’m glad I was able to overcome the obstacles that made me join this community in the first place. I no longer think about suicide often. I don’t remember the last time I genuinely thought about it. One reason is that I no longer direct anger at myself. I let myself be angry, but I always try not to go overboard. I no longer tolerate people burdening me to the point of implosion.

My mindset has drastically changed since the past 4 years and incredibly still the last 2 years. My relationships are in a manageable place. I no longer engage in toxic relationships and toxic behaviors of the past that I subconsciously absorbed from my childhood. I stopped letting those scenes play out over and over again. I recommend the audiobook “What Matters Most: Living a More Considered Life”  by James Hollis. He talks a lot about scenes playing out in our daily lives that we replicate over and over again, at the expense of ourselves, our growth, and our future.

I’ve let go of many things and learned much, much more. I am unduly grateful for the wisdom I’ve gained thus far and look forward to gaining much more.

I’m 29 today.

Just wanted to say, “hi and thanks to this community.” Until next time.

With regards,

From Florida