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i really hoped for things to go well for my life to work but everyday feels duller than the day before. i seriously don’t know why i’m sticking around. meeting people, working life, socializing it’s all so tiring so hurting i wish i can just leave end this nonsense of pretend. it’s like it’s all foggy but just around my head everyone can see and smell and i’m just blindly moving. a damn robot. gotta look good gotta small talk i’m seriously done. the fact that nothing won’t change makes i even worse. i don’t think anyone really cares if i went they’ll just say i went to hell for killing myself