I am at the airport…my plane leaves for my suicide spot in 40 minutes. It is a really weird feeling…being in an airport for the very last time ever….I keep looking around and thinking jow weird it is that by this time tomorrow I will be dead.
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Who is this, and where are you flying from, may I ask. Go to, L.A.
Hello,
in Canada. flew to vancouver. plane landed and now I am on public transit on my way to my suicide site. it is real now and I am scared. but ready
I hope you don’t, I cracked the valve one time, I was ready and scared, I changed my mind I’m glad I did. Think twice you can always change your mission.
Hello?
By now I suppose you either did it, or didn’t do it. In case you didn’t, feel like talking about the place where you went? I lived in Vancouver and it’s one of the most beautiful cities I’ve ever seen, especially the nature surrounding it. I wasn’t suicidal back then but now that I am, I can think of a few great spots there where I’d like to have my last moments.
Wish I was in your shoes right now. Where is your suicide destination? I was planning to book out by red eye to Aokigahara Forest in Jan 2015, it seems I have fallen behind schedule..
So..not dead, unfortunately. I don’t want to discuss details because I don’twant to break the “no methods” rule. But here’s what happened: notwithstanding it was 2am, a passerby noticed me and was fast enough to get to me and police came and I was unceremoniously dumped at the nearest psych ward. They took away all my electronics (not that it mattered, I had broken my phone…still have my iPad though.). They would not discharge me but, after a week, they are now sending me to a hospital in the city and province that I live in. And of course,they are sending me to the worst (ok, possibly second worst) hospital in the city depending on who you talk to. I had a horrific experience there before. it really was quite fortuitous that this passerby came by and was physically able to stop me so the nurses are all saying “oh it’s a sign you are meant to be alive.” I’m not so sure. So…yeah. I have no phone, no idea what is going to happen at work, still alive, and heading off to a hospital where I had a terrible experience. I will tough it out at this shitty hospital and wait until they discharge me and then just jump into a cab to the airport….hoping there won’t be any good samaritans out this time….I mean really…what’s a girl gotta do for an uninterrupted suicide around here?
Can they legally detain you in that psych ward? Seems to me it’s nobody’s business but yours. You reserve the right to end your life if you so wish. I have 2 suicide attempts under my belt but fortunately no psych ward visits. Be careful in there, from what I’ve heard they’re awful places. Maybe try and explain your attempt as an accident, say you were very drunk and didn’t know what you were doing. Best of luck
Yes, they can legally keep me here under provincial legislation. I have made a request to be transferred to a different hospital with a different doctor, but that Dr has to be willing to take me on as a patient, and they have to have a bed available…so, here’s hoping……
I’m sorry that that happened 🙁 wards are horrible places…. Hopefully you’ll be able to get out.