Hanging on by a Thread

It’s actually pretty insane how people say if you tell someone how you feel it will help, just do it. I have told 3 licensed doctors I am suicidal but won’t kill myself but that I am severely depressed. Told a counselor how awful I have felt for years and the ways I’d like to end it even. You can tell anyone how shitty your mental health is and no one cares. No one can help you from what I’ve experienced and if they can they didn’t try to with me at all. I don’t like to burden people I know by telling them this side of me but Jesus Christ I thought telling doctors might just get me some help. And people ponder why the suicide rates are so fucking high and wonder why the people they love or knew didn’t seek help but instead chose to end their life.