Why is it that I have to stay alive because of others? what about me? why should I continue to suffer just so others won’t be hurt? it is so unfair that people think that suicide is a selfish act because that person didn’t think of their love ones. But what about the person that commited suicide? should had they continue the heavy burden that comes from being alive? It makes me mad that I can’t leave this world because my love ones will feel guilty or mad about me being gone by choice.
When I become suicidal, I become really angry since I can’t leave because of my love ones and for a little bit I hate them because they are keeping me around. It will be so easy if i would to become an statistic and die in a car accident, it would be a win win situation, i would be death and my love ones wouldn’t feel like it was their fault.
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just in general….youll hear people say suicide is selfish which sounds really backwards considering its the “normal” people getting us to stay alive and suffer for them. i couldnt ever figure out the logic to that and i highly doubt i ever will
People getting us to stay alive and suffer for them lol. I would be dead already I was forced to stay alive by.. strangers?? People I’d never willingly want in my life lol. And people I’ll never even see again ….. I’m getting ready to commit and I don’t know when I will but that’s just it, I’m not going to let a complete stranger force me to be alive when I’ve been ready to kill myself for 15 years. Hopefully I commit in the next few months, but definitely soon. Lol.
Not for strangers, that was just general talk. The main reason is my 6 years old son, I know that if i commit suicide it will hunt him for the rest of his life and that is not fair to him.
There is no logic to it. It is simply the standard reply to a situation that defies logic and explanation. “Please, dear loved one, please continue to suffer so that we, those who care about you, will not have to suffer.”
Yeah. There’s no logic to it, but to the non-depressed and non-suicidal, it is all they know to ask. You can’t blame them at all, but it is an irrational request to make.
I’m still around in large part because of my dad for that reason.
On one hand if I die I will not have any idea what pain I caused, and when he dies he won’t have any idea what pain I caused, it only matters to the living which will die. Not nice but true, So I guess it matters long as I’m alive.
I don’t have any loved ones. And that’s the truth. All you’ve got to do is eliminate them from your life completely. Seems like it’s “normal” for -you- to have loved ones but maybe your loved ones are obsessed with you or stepping past their boundaries. You don’t HAVE to suffer/stay alive for them , choices you make are up to you. Now we just want to make sure you are not making rash spontaneous choices because your mind is not right at the moment.
For example
Subject A: nothing to live for and has been ready to commit for 15 years. Fails to commit.
Subject B: has a lot to live for, becomes miserable for one night and has thought about suicide for a couple months, and dies.. but would have regret it.
Here in this example we see that there are a few different situations one can be in. You don’t want to make a decision you will regret and that is the most important thing. Kind of like why there is the morning after pill for when you accidentally have intercourse with a hideous guy, but he would have terrible genes and you wouldn’t want to give birth to his horrible children. But there is no turning back when you commit suicide.
Yes, it is my choice because my 6 year old son will never understand why he wasn’t enough for me to stay. So yes, I would rather suffer and continue to talk as many pills as possible so he doesn’t have to suffer. I’m a mother and my son loves me and needs me so i must stay for him. I also have a husband, if I were to leave he will suffer a lot. So if it weren’t for those two beautiful people, I would have been gone a long time ago. The rest of my family are not that important.