ugh…

the appeal of having a local boyfriend gets stronger and stronger… (I have an long distance boyfriend who lives a few thousand k’s from me)
But I want this to work out.
I can’t give up so easily. I just can’t see this going anywhere. The prices of rentals there seem to be pretty much almost extortionate. Makes the prices here seem very cheap in comparison. There has to be something, right. Maybe he’s not looking hard enough?
Let’s face it, I don’t think anyone wants to live in a rundown, dirty dump with horrible neighbours.
It’s going to really suck if we just meet in real life for a really short time again, then I’ll have to leave and I’ll be bored and miserable again…
Sure I could dump him and just get a rich guy who will pay for everything… I don’t want that lol. I won’t be attracted to the guy. I know someone online who did just that, got a fairly rich guy… although he works his butt off. I’ll never know if she is attracted to him or attracted to his money. I hope its the former.
I just want to cry forever…