So, here I am again. Writing on my laptop. Writing my thoughts. Putting them on the screen. Why? I’m not exactly sure. I feel that I’m just a prisoner in this
life and I have nowhere to go and no one to be with. No one understands me! Wow that sounds like an angry teenager and I’m 30 ha. I hate this life. I just don’t fit in.
I don’t get why so many people want to live this way. Live in a world that seems so backwards in so many ways. The way the majority eats. The way they transport.
The way they package stuff. The way they build stuff. The way they worship money. The way they hoard material items. The way they post about their lives all the time. The way they destroy nature. The way they contradict themselves in so many ways. Just EVERYTHING. It seems so backwards, how did the world get to this state. I’m surrounded by it all. I can’t get away. This is what I mean when I said I feel that I am a prisoner in this life. A prisoner in a cell can’t get away from the prison experience. I can’t get away from the current
experience I am in on this planet. I just want out. I tried to remain optimistic about this life. That things will change. That some significant strides will be
made. But I am no longer holding my breath. Most people are asleep in this world, walking mindlessly and aimlessly, living a life that they will ultimately look
back on (if they awaken at some point) and be dissapointed in their actions or inaction in their life. What a shame.
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You’ve articulated something I’ve struggled to put into words.
Often I look around, as I slave for money, for material items, a home, a way to get from place to place, and wonder how we got so far from where we started. How did we get from living with the land to shamelessly plundering and wasting what’s left.
I’m awake in a sense, but I’m still a hypocrite, and I’ll remain so until my last breath. I did try, for a time, before ennui and depression caused me to abandon worthy endeavors.
At this point we’re trained to be mindless, and I too see no hope in things getting better. It would require a mass overhaul of our entire way of life, and there’s no profit in that so no one will bother.
It never was any different than it is right now, there is no other way, people can’t think with one brain, the only thing you can do is take care of yourself, make your stay here best as you can and help when you can, everything comes to an end including us and this planet.
Our world is like it is, because we are with so many.
Yes, you are basically made to walk the line, but there’s freedom to step over also.
Nobody is stopping you joining Greenpeace, protesting, starting a non-plastic business, living in a commune in India or whatever. There are choices, people are just scared to make them.
I am not very positive about mankinds future to be honoust. But then do we need to? Maybe the best thing for the earth and all other species, is the self-destructiveness of man. Mankind will become extinct, but the world will still be there. Making space for other forms of live. In a way that is comforting, isnt it.