My good bye letter to my Beautiful Girl

Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on and mine is my best friend. We all need that one person when the world is against us. You were that person who sent me encouraging texts,and talked to me on the phone for hours.you were the one that kept me going you were the one who was able to let me face each day. You know there were many days when I wanted to die and not get out of bed and I couldn’t find the strength to put my feet on the floor. I was praying for my life to end but it never came. But you know what I got out of bed because of you.
I guess knowing that your going to die make you feel  emotional .i always knew I was going to die at some point in my life. As I’m laying here with tears in my eyes and I know that I’m going to gone soon makes me feel that my life wasn’t that  bad . My friend by the time you get my letter I will already be gone safe on the other side  wherever that might be but I know I will be with my mom. And as I’m lying here writing you this letter thinking that in no time I will be gone but you know I’m not scared I knew I going to die why does it matter when or where? Either way I’ve fucked up in my life but I’ve also loved and lived. Either way I’m leaving people that I love to death but yet I’m escaping the  demons that I can’t handle. Death is so unfair but it happens daily . I’m sorry I’m doing this to you and everyone else I love the demon won.I love you so much my beautiful Girl. Hey Beautiful please don’t let anyone change the love I have  for you to loved you  because my love for you will alway be there . Even when I’m gone . Please remember the things I told you, our talks and how Close we are to each other and that special night at Dairy Queen . The love I have for you is real and the only thing that is no loner here  is me
I love you so much my beautiful girl but I have to go see God I will see you on the other side and waiting to greet you. I
Love you so much my beautiful girl  and I will miss you