I want to die again.
I always get like this when I lose all of my reasons to live.
I already know that I shouldn’t need reasons to live.
But I’m not perfect. As of now, reasons are my oxygen. I’m probably find another reason, be fine for a while, and return later with this same post. Stuck on repeat
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Well, one reason to live is we need you here at S.P. !! You seem to inject just the right humor or right comment at the right time. Walking my dog helps keep the dark thoughts away now. But, before my dog I would walk in cemeteries and talk to the heavens. I would carry a mediation crystal to help me focus.
At one point I thought ” it isn’t normal to be walking around cemeteries ” and then I heard a voice from the heavens sort of yell ” You are not normal “. So I kept walking the cemeteries free of care what anybody thought. I still do visit the cemetery every once in a while, but not often anymore–sigh.
I always agree with you but we all need a reason to carry on, a dream a goal and it can change in a heart beat due to circumstances that surround us , it can go from being broke to WTF am I going to do with all this money! If you won the lotto for example, My reason is simple I just want to be content that way I do the simple things that make me happy, I also think big and dream but don’t rely on those things as reasons to live. Your fine, do something you enjoy doing smile and laugh and stop kicking yourself in the ass! 🙂
I’m sorry 🙁
This is sad, I’m sorry you’re still in a dark place. You were the for me many years ago and you will always be important to me for that reason, I know we have grown apart for the most part but my line is literally always open if you need a close friend again. Stay strong.
I’ve been trying to kill myself since 2007, I’ve never had a reason to live other than I don’t really know how to kill myself. Lol. If I had a gun right now. I’d be dead by morning hahahahahaha..