What do you do when your death will crush the hearts of your parents?
I’ve been living with them for almost 2 years now, and I love them dearly. I don’t want to make them go through the pain of losing a child…but I just can’t go on, its physically difficult for me to get out of bed in the morning and the pain I’m feeling is so severe I can’t take it anymore. They’re the only thing keeping me from suicide. I don’t know what to do…
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I think your doing it, if that’s what is keeping you alive, life really isn’t that long it just seems like it.
Hold on for them. You don’t know what will change in the situation. Just try and keep breathing and wait, wait, wait.
“What do you do when your death will crush the hearts of your _______” . Many of us, self included, have to grapple with that question. For nearly forty five years I grappled with the question. For about five years I have been grappling with that question.
Life had been grossly unfair to me. Since then I made life into something just barely acceptable me. But if go away on my own then what becomes of the ones I loved? What does that do to them? Am I (or they?) exaggerating my importance to them or am I underestimating my importance to them? Are the benefits I give them greater than the stresses I give them and myself? Oh the quandary.