Hey, i want my page to be a safe place. I can help you, and give you advice, i can help you in someway. I want to be positive because trust me, my life is negative and i want to feel like i’m not alone in this world battling depression, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, suicidal thoughts.
In the comment section, say something that has been on your mind a lot. If you want advice tell me your situation and ill help as much as possible.
Love you all! XOXO -AJ
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Hello m8, I fucking hate my life, piece of shit time I’ve been going through since the earliest moments of my life, through high school rn. Every fucking thing’s unfair bro. I hate the fact that I went on a trip to Australia, worked my ass off to be fluent in your fucking language to finally be alone since I got SHIT social skills and wEiRd interests (asperger’s syndrome), while watching the guys who knew 3 words make friends because ‘oMg yOuR acCeNt iS sO hOt’. I hate french education that doesn’t let you fucking choose your topics. I hate high school assholes judging me because ‘i’M sO wEiRd aNd sTuPiD’ (for fucks sake I’m autistic dammit). I always wanted love (like true love) but no girl ever want to befriend me for whatever stupid reason I don’t get. I’m sick of the stupid friends I made here who abandon me once they get better (and IIIIII don’t!!!!!!!!!!!!!!).
I hate my stupid brother playing league of legends and the only thing he cares about is the bloody internet connection. I hate my lack of creativity as an artist (finding a drawing idea is still a pain even if you got the skills), I don’t like the profile pic I’ve drawn, the nose is fucked up and how does that even represent me? Also my mother died when I was 10 and I had the brilliant idea of kissing the corpse as my way to say goodbye, and sometimes the thought of the dead body pops up in my head and it’s annoying.
Also I hate lots of things as you just read. I’m usually pretending to be happy but now I just wanna rant and pardon my english, i’m not paying attention, et je suis français merde.
I’ve accepted that my life is shit, it’s not changing, never ever don’t make me think the opposite (what is better; hope or despair?)
I know I’ve been an asshole to people (even here) but I learn from mistakes. You can tell me about you brother if you wish. I don’t really expect anyone to help, I mean, how can you relate to an autistic high schooler?
wow this barely even makes sense… shit i can’t edit.
Hi, I just want to let you know that i dont care if you are autistic. You are a human being and we all deserve to be treated well! i’m sorry about your current situation. You are worthy and you matter. People are so rude. People bully me all the time. And we can be rude back to people and thats okay and im glad you realized it was a mistake! You will find a girl. Trust me you will, you just got to be paitent. You will find someone! Just stay strong and stay positive. I promise it will be okay and it will get better. Highschool for most people is the worst part of their lives. Once highschool is over life will still be complicated but hopefully itll be better!
-AJ
I tried being positive, trust me m8, but that’s just so hard, I always go back to being an angry asshole trash-talking people around me. I dunno, i’m angry!
I’m trying to be positive as well, and yes I know that it is hard. Changing is going to be hard and take a while, trust me I’m trying to change too. -AJ
AJ- you amd I have similar issues. BPD, major depression and anxiety. Glad to fight alongside you. 🙂
T3R3Z1- my son is autistic. School is a cruel place for an autistic person, but at the college and university level your unique qualities will be celebrated, rather than frowned on. It wont be terrible for too much longer.
My french is rusty (Canadian) so pardon any mistakes… premier, tu ne pas stupid!! Ta mère serait fière de toi. Rappelez-vous son sourire, son rire, son amour toujours. Quand les gens et la vie vous mettent en colère, rappelez-vous son amour. Un amour de mère ne finit jamais, et son plus fort que toute autre chose. Vivantes ou non, les mères ne laissent pas leurs bébés.
She will always be with you, always be proud, even at times you feel maybe you didnt handle things ‘un cent percent’ Autism isn’t a walk in the park. I’ve watched my son struggle with anger, and disappointments from school, but I’ll have you know, a smart, multilingual fellow is quite desirable at the college level. Heck, there will be a time you’ll feel overwhelmed by the female attention. Enjoy the quiet now, young man.
Finally, I find someone who has similar issues.. I have never found someone. -AJ
Hi AJ, this page is a cool idea and I hope it helps you as well as others. Your title Safe Place caught my attention because that’s what I need. Suppose I’ll just ramble…
Not a minute goes by that I’m not thinking about my suicide. Sure I’ve got to live for, and life always gives us possibilities. But here’s the problem: nothing makes me happy. You could literally drop a stack of money in my lap and I’d just give it away because I can’t think of a single thing that would be worthwhile for me. I don’t want friends. I don’t want to travel. I don’t want to listen to music or read or exercise or even eat. Because every time I do any of those things, I’m already thinking “this is doing nothing for me.”
Sunsets, beaches, lightning storms, stars do nothing for me. Pills do nothing. Alcohol feels good going down (just because it’s a form of self destruction) but I can’t even get drunk or high.
Well if you have any advice for that, I’m all ears. But don’t feel obligated to say anything. Thanks for the opportunity to unload. I would never make my own post because I don’t see the point. But thanks for this safe place for the night.
My page will always be a safe place for others, I never feel like I have a safe place to just talk because people always need to tell a trusted adult and when I talk to someone, like an adult they want to send me to a hospital, but I’ve been to a hospital 6 times and it does nothing. I’m always thinking about suicide as well. Nothing really makes me happy anymore either. My friends don’t, nothing. It does suck. If you need me in the future, you know where to find me. -AJ
Hello there. So I was lurking about, like I tend to lately, and this shows up. It was a pleasant sight.
I used to share stuff I wrote about, shared my thoughts a lot, still do every now and then. I started here when I was like 19 going on 20 or something.
Things were a lot different for me back then.
I appreciate you giving the oppurtunity for people to vent and soak up some of your positivity.
Appreciative as hell rn,
Trey, the mindless gamer
I’m glad I can do that for you! -AJ