I broke my 20 days no fap streak which was the longest I ever managed to go without jerking off. I did it because I was trying to solve this math problem for school and I could not fking focus at all I was so restless I was standing up from my chair and walking in circles more then actually doing math… Fuck. I feel no energy and no confidence now.
Its just fked up. Either I jack off and then Im like a walking zombie tired and depressed all the time and also I cant look girls in the eyes or talk to them confidently coz I just feel ashamed. Or I dont jerk off and then my mind is racing, I cant focus and I cant learn.
The only options are either find a sexual partner or kill myself. Idk which one is harder but both seem just impossible to me.
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I’m asexual and honestly I really wish I wasn’t…. But even if you were ace you’d probably still masturbate, likely would want to less…. It also feels like a chore, but otherwise things can get rather uncomfortable given enough time…. You really shouldn’t feel bad about it though, it is a perfectly normal thing.
You really shouldnt feel bad about it… Easier said then done. Like I know everyone does it. But I still cant look women in the eyes when I do it. My eyes just dart away in shame. Its an uncounscious reaction and it did not happen when I was on nofap. But at the same time I reall need to learn math.
You do know that women masturbate to men as well right? Like it’s a two way street. Or they just have sex with guys (and vice versa), which is more or less the same desire.
It’s fine. Women are attractive to men, and that’s natural. No reason to feel shame at that. And if the shame is because you don’t have a partner, well there is no good justification for why that’s embarrassing.
Women really don’t care if you masturbate, they’d probably find it weird if you didn’t actually…. I actually got made fun of in school because people assumed I didn’t masturbate and they used it to dehumanize me…. While I’m sure you just shouldn’t walk up to random women and talk about masturbation there really isn’t much need to feel awkward about it…. Also I know that masturbation apparently helps with the sexual stuffs too (based off of what one friend has told me at least…. They are different) so arguably it is a thing you should do. Maybe just make it a weekly activity? Like on a day when you aren’t going to interface with people at all? Maybe the weekend? O.o I’m sorry…. I do hope you can find a solution that helps you feel better though.
Shh! you’re giving away all our ace secrets! =P
Oh yeah…. I uhhhh mean we never struggle with anything due to being ace xD
And it totally doesn’t make trying to date lots harder, and we totally never want to date a person either. There we go I covered the tracks.