its 1am and im just. really fucking struggling. i have two weeks left until my first semester of college is over and i want it to be done now. i was home for thanksgiving and have to get up in 5 hours to catch a train back to school but id literally rather die. i feel like i have nothing and no one to live for; my future feels bleak and everyone around me would surely be better off eventually if i were gone. im so fucking miserable all i wanna do is lay in bed and cry and self harm and listen to music, i dont know what the point of going on is because i dont even have a future i want to reach other than finally killing myself.
not to be an emo teen but everything fucking sucks.
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Have you made any friends there?
everyone asks me that and the answer is no, not really. though how much of that is me being anxious and how much is that people there just dont really like me i cant say.
You could take some time off to cry and listen to music. I wish I had. Can always go back to college or do something else with a better perspective.