I find it peculiar
The way the people around me so effortlessly and thoughtlessly put me aside. I’m on the edge. I keep saying. “It’s so bad” “I’m not doing well” “why is no one taking me seriously?” “I need support”. It has taken years to be able to say these truths without falling apart. My therapist agrees. I need support. I need support 24/7, so an ESA may be the best route. Well, I don’t have the money to pay a trainer and right now I’m unemployed with all the time in the world. So I should get one and train it myself. But every inch along the way? Comes with its own roadblock. Shelters require proof of landlords approval for adoption. With an esa letter it’d be no problem. Except I’m not on the lease until August.
So I get someone else to do the actual adoption. Oh, but my roommate doesn’t want a pet dog in the house. This same roommate had a cat when we moved in. This same roommate at one point managed to have five secret cats in the house at once. this same roommate refuses to understand how close I am to locking myself in the bathroom and taking every pill in the cabinet. This roommate won’t acknowledge what I need for my mental health because she’s wrapped up in her own.
Ok. So I’ll go to my parents house and adopt a dog there, train it there until the roommate moves out. My parents call me sneaky. My parents refuse to listen to what I need. My parents call me impulsive. My parents say “that’s a lot of trouble to go to just to get a pet dog right now”. IT IS NOT A PET. IT IS A SERVICE ANIMAL.
My therapist agrees to write a letter to show my roommate proving that i need this. Hopefully then it will get through her thick skull but, who knows. I am slipping. And my luck is down.
No stimulus check because I turned 18 mid last year and was claimed as a dependent. Unemployed with no benefits because my parents wouldn’t allow me to work when I was home and the work I’ve done in the last three months count for nothing. My parents weren’t even compensated for me being a dependent because I’m no longer seventeen or under. I’m being targeted by the universe
and I’m nearly ready to give up
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Have you considered a cat? They take little to no training and it sounds like your roommate likes them.
Don’t feel too targeted, no stimulus check here either and I qualify but it just seems it’s gotten lost and no one has any information. Gotta love bureaucracy.
Am personally disgusted by the idea of getting a pet because you’re depressed.
But don’t blame you for thinking like that.
Society is fucked these days. There is a whole cottage industry of young social sciences majors offering up their pseudoscientific opinions in the media all the time. As a result, everyone thinks they are mentally ill, and everyone spends way too much time focusing on their breathing and going to therapy.
What is wrong in the modern world is loneliness, and the narcissism that comes with being told you have this and this disorder and must do all these practises (with limited proven effect, despite the claims) to make it go away.
If everybody in a society is mentally ill, that is a hint that the problem is not in their heads. But in society.
Individualism, the Internet, narcissism, (and currently COVID-19) are to blame.
People need face-to-face interaction and they need a sense of community and of purpose. The modern world offers none of those things.
i cant disagree with anything you said. i actually agree with it, society sucks and they are too stupid to see that (society as a whole not individual people)
however (unless i read it wrong) i can disagree with the pet comment. i got 2 cats and they help me a lot with my depression and anxiety. they are just normal cats, no special training or anything. adopted from a pet place. but they still show me that they love me and are always there for me when i cry. personally it would depend on if you think you can do it or not. if youre too depressed to take care of it (like i know i can be sometimes but my husband feeds them on the days i cant) then you probably shouldnt get a pet. but if you have a functioning depression then id have to say get a pet. loving it and talking it for walks, giving it treats. i find that just seeing your best friend that you can always count on happy, makes me happy for a little bit, and a little bit is better then nothing 🙂
Please take this somewhere else. I’m seriously not in the right headspace to debate or listen to someone trying to minimize my medically diagnosed mental illness.
I kind of relate. “The way the people around me so effortlessly and thoughtlessly put me aside.” In my case it has been thoughtlessly add pain to my pain. Of course, being thoughtlessly put aside would add to your pain too. Yeah, I relate.