I Don’t Know N

I’ve been told that I should meet new people. A lot of people have said that. I don’t really know how to do that though. This is in regards to her not answering again. She never answers. At least it feels that way. I’ve made way too many posts about it. I’m tired of making them. So I’ll focus on the fact that I have no idea how to make new friends. You feel like that’s something a person should have mastered at when they were just a kid. Or at least learned some skills around it. Can’t say I’ve learned a damn thing. Tried a lot of different things but they never really stick. Can’t say that I’m not to blame. I’ve flaked out on people before. So I guess I get what I deserve. There’s a lot going on right now. A whole lot. Pandemic, protests, brutalities. It’s a whole lot of chaos. I don’t know if anyone knows what’s going on. There’s too much information to properly sort through it all. I am curious though on what will happen next. You know there’s been a lot of tension these past few years. It seems like the divide between people have gotten wider and wider. Sometimes I wonder if it’s always been like that and I was just too young and too dumb to notice. Was there ever a point where people saw eye to eye? Not necessarily on everything, but just on the basics. Be kind, don’t hurt people, etc. It really is falling apart huh. Not just for us but for everyone.