General UV by darkwillow 9/9/2020 written by darkwillow 9/9/2020 Right now, when you look out into the universe that lays before you, what do you see? 4 comments 0 Email Related posts a reason to die… 12/2/2020 Meds and alcohol round 3 12/2/2020 Can’t take the insane pain and anxiety 12/2/2020 12/2/2020 falling apart (again). 12/1/2020 I’m f***ing tired of my mom 12/1/2020 Free speech 12/1/2020 Oddly Content 12/1/2020 Finally reached out 12/1/2020 (re posted) my attempted suicide story 12/1/2020 4 comments rivets 9/9/2020 - 6:50 am A beautiful natural space that humans invariably convert into a collection of commodities that can only be enjoyed for a price, filled with humans who think they are the center if that universe and are therefore commodities themselves. Also rocks and space dust. Log in to Reply Once 9/9/2020 - 11:02 pm I see nowhere to grab. I see handholds, they’re everywhere, but they’re just…emptiness. I also think I see Jupiter, way out there, on the left. Log in to Reply LetTheLostKittensPlay 9/10/2020 - 12:59 pm Escapism, freedom from the limitations of my chemically fractured body. And most importantly, within that void there is nothing but relief. Relief is the act of floating in space, with no directions and no organisation. (I mean that literally… not a metaphor. I like the idea of being encased in a directionless void.) I can imagine the coldness of space floating the hollow space in my soul. I would be at peace even if I was just lifelessly hanging around in orbit, as a corpse. Damn… if only space travel was as simple as catching a taxi, purposely detaching yourself from a safety harness once you land. Yeah… I’m aimlessly rambling now. It is hard to keep your thoughts in tune with anhedonia. Log in to Reply ultraviolet 9/11/2020 - 4:42 am I was in my room. Crying. All afternoon… my dog died. My bestfriend, my everything. I don’t know how to deal with it. I don’t know if I’ll be okay…. I feel so alone… now I’m wondering if you posted this because you felt how sad I was. Maybe the universe called you for me. I have tried reaching out to a few people and nothing has helped everyone just makes me feel worse. I looked at the stars all the time with my dog. I’m hurting so much. Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.