Doing that.
I’m just saying it’s possible so you shouldn’t have to lose hope. Sorry I know that first sentence was kind of harsh, I’m going through stuff right now.
thedevilisclose Do u mean Suicide after the week or have i misconstrued the txt?
thedevilisclose5/22/2021 - 6:07 pm
No, therapy stuff. May (and the beginning of june) is the one time of year I can’t commit suicide. Important birthdays I don’t want to fuck over. I guess I’m just lucky that they are all close to each other lol
Rainwatch5/23/2021 - 1:37 am
Cool. Im glad I was mistaken. Hope u get something out of that therapy.
lonewolf235/22/2021 - 1:21 am
Disappearing from everyone’s life. Well not everyone but those who know me or think they know me. I’ve done some terrible things. I’m trash. They show me love but I can’t accept that love until I start loving myself. There’s something wrong with me and I think I need extreme isolation to figure things out. I’m not right inside. I don’t understand myself but I feel repulsed by people’s attempts to get close to me. I don’t know why. I get angry when people try to pry me open.
I’ve thought about it and I’ve thought about it and I’ve thought about it and…… I don’t think I can be, but I’m still trying for some reason though (not even. I know why. Stupid disorders)
While I know I’m cared for. No one really relies on me. Aside from my cats, everyone can take care of themselves and I know my cats would be well taken care of…
See the person I love. Have sex. Or be elected president. Or get pregnant. To move away from this city. To see five old friends in specific. To receive money. To see her again just to say all the things I never said. To go on a road trip (yeah my username). To change my nationality. To speak another language.
To live out in the middle of nowhere in a cabin with someone I love and that loves me back. To be self sufficient and have everything we need to not have to go into society much.
I think finally seeing a psychiatrist would be nice. (I’m on a waitlist right now, and waiting times where I live are really long.) I’d like to know what’s wrong with me, maybe get some meds, et cetera.
I’ve always wanted to have gothic-style clothes, but I’ve never really bought any.
Like Robert77, I would also like to live out in the middle of nowhere with someone I love. Preferably in the woods. I hate feeling uncertain about life, so knowing that I will always have a stable home and family would be cool.
Oh, yeah, I almost forgot, I’d like to have my cat with me in the hypothetical-home-in-the-woods. She’s one of the reasons I haven’t hung myself already.
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Being able to leave my parents forever and never talk to them again would make me pretty happy.
Doing that.
I’m just saying it’s possible so you shouldn’t have to lose hope. Sorry I know that first sentence was kind of harsh, I’m going through stuff right now.
don’t worry, it doesn’t sound harsh. I hope stuff will work out for you
One way or another it will be sorted out in a week or so. Thank you *hugs*
thedevilisclose Do u mean Suicide after the week or have i misconstrued the txt?
No, therapy stuff. May (and the beginning of june) is the one time of year I can’t commit suicide. Important birthdays I don’t want to fuck over. I guess I’m just lucky that they are all close to each other lol
Cool. Im glad I was mistaken. Hope u get something out of that therapy.
Disappearing from everyone’s life. Well not everyone but those who know me or think they know me. I’ve done some terrible things. I’m trash. They show me love but I can’t accept that love until I start loving myself. There’s something wrong with me and I think I need extreme isolation to figure things out. I’m not right inside. I don’t understand myself but I feel repulsed by people’s attempts to get close to me. I don’t know why. I get angry when people try to pry me open.
I’ve thought about it and I’ve thought about it and I’ve thought about it and…… I don’t think I can be, but I’m still trying for some reason though (not even. I know why. Stupid disorders)
^^ that.
I do know why I keep trying though, some people rely on me being part of the machine.
While I know I’m cared for. No one really relies on me. Aside from my cats, everyone can take care of themselves and I know my cats would be well taken care of…
See the person I love. Have sex. Or be elected president. Or get pregnant. To move away from this city. To see five old friends in specific. To receive money. To see her again just to say all the things I never said. To go on a road trip (yeah my username). To change my nationality. To speak another language.
To live out in the middle of nowhere in a cabin with someone I love and that loves me back. To be self sufficient and have everything we need to not have to go into society much.
I think finally seeing a psychiatrist would be nice. (I’m on a waitlist right now, and waiting times where I live are really long.) I’d like to know what’s wrong with me, maybe get some meds, et cetera.
I’ve always wanted to have gothic-style clothes, but I’ve never really bought any.
Like Robert77, I would also like to live out in the middle of nowhere with someone I love. Preferably in the woods. I hate feeling uncertain about life, so knowing that I will always have a stable home and family would be cool.
Oh, yeah, I almost forgot, I’d like to have my cat with me in the hypothetical-home-in-the-woods. She’s one of the reasons I haven’t hung myself already.
Sedatives.