I often ask why the ***** that hatched me didn’t abort me. I should have been an abortion.
I should never have been born. This world is not made for the sensitive, those who feel so deeply. I am only speaking for myself here, but I don’t think people like me should be here. We serve no purpose. Our sensitivity helps no one. All we fucking do is feel the pain of others and then our souls bleed. I want the bleeding to stop. But, it will not. Nothing I am – my sensitivity – matters to no one and profits no one. I want a goddamn fucking lobotomy so I don’t feel any fucking more.
I’m getting fucking drunk as we speak, then heading to the garage, turning on both cars, and going to sleep. Then maybe, just maybe, the pain will finally end. If there is a god, they will let me finally be at peace.
I fucking hate myself for being born. That stinking whore should have had an abortion.
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Extreme sensitivity is the worst. I also share this curse, and sympathize with you. I suppose the conventional, traditional thing to do at this point is to ask you to reconsider your decision, tell you that there are other ways of living with this, that life is a beautiful gift and we only get one chance…something tells me you already know all that, so I’ll just say that whatever you decide, I hope you find peace.
Exactly this is the reason I can’t continue in this world. Every interaction is so hard to follow through.. but only because people treat you like cr@p continuously.! In another world this would be an amazing ‘trait’ to have.
This world is where sentience comes to die, where emotions, feelings and sinsitivity get ground up and turned into the robotic mechnised flesh beings we see living and betraying for money.
There is nothing here of value to the human spirit, the so called ‘lessons of life’ are bereft of meaning in the Universe at large.
I can only suggest you try to create something to light the dark. I wish you only peace and that your spirit in its amazing colour, not be destroyed by this – meteor impact deserving – piece of vapid shit, that we were indoctrinated to call a ‘civilization’.
I can relate to this all too well. I am one of those people that loves too much and feels intense pain from all the suffering I see everywhere and in my own life. I do feel like I am not fit to live in this world of such pain, misery, suffering and sorrow. I believe in heaven and hell and this place to me is a taste of what hell will be like. I want to go home to be with the Lord. I feel like my time is done here. I want out. I beg God to take me everyday and have for years now. Im getting to the point myself where Im not sure I can wait much longer.