I can talk to you here. To be open and honest; this is it for me being honest with people about my desire to die. I have great shame about it, and have trouble telling even friends and family, and I’ve tried.

But when I get off this site everything about actually talking about those feelings goes back in the box. My masking game is on point right now, so I can fake it through most social encounters. Sometimes a leak happens, but I tend to plug it quickly.