Ive been on this medication for a little bit now. (I should see if i can find out how long and update this). I think somewheres between half a year and a year? Or maybe im just coming up on half a year? Has it really been that long?
Well to start with i should probably tell you how living without my medication is. Its torturous, plain and simple. Absolute fucking hell.
On my medication? I love it! Its so much easier to handle things and i have episodes a lot less.
But like all good things theres a catch…
I dont feel any better. I just feel like everything is getting buried, unheard. Just because i dont voice that i want to die as often, doesnt mean that its not on my mind. It almost feels like everyone against psychiatry is right, theyre just drugging us to shut us up so the dont have to deal with us. But at the same time i question if maybe living with part of me silenced is a good thing. I mean, i did say that its easier to handle things…
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if you could keep us updated im really curious. my experience and every other person i’ve met is that there is a few weeks honeymoon period when you start a medication but a few months in it’s back to hell or even worse if the meds have a backlash. im currently going through the worst god damned hell of my life even worse than before the meds and im sure the they are at fault but doctors dont believe me that the meds caused it (of course liability if i kill myself). all i can say is enjoy it and lets hope it lasts for you
I hope you feel better :/